Page also reflected on the character that launched him to fame, the titular pregnant teenager in the indie classic Juno. “People, especially teenage girls, really responded to that character, Juno,” he wrote, adding that the “vibe” of the character was “new for a film that reached the audience it reached, and with her as the title character.” Page then proceeded to confirm what queer and trans people have been saying for forever, which is that Juno is a trans film.
“It related to my queerness and my transness,” he wrote. But Page’s feelings about that were understandably complex. “And then you have that film have the success it had, and the major, major profit, between the film and the soundtrack—and then you fucking squash that all away,” Page added. “You squash it. So you’re benefiting greatly from this character that connected with people, and then you do that. It’s gross.”
Page also shared in Esquire that the hype around Juno “literally did almost kill [him],” which he linked to needing to be seen as a woman in the public eye. His struggles with “intense depression, anxiety, severe panic attacks” continued throughout his “early to mid-twenties,” with Page sharing that he “didn’t know how to tell people how unwell [he] was.”
“I was living the life and my dreams were coming true, and all that was happening,” Page wrote. “And yet, for example, when I was shooting Inception, I could pretty much not leave whatever hotel I’d be staying in.”
From the looks of this essay, Page seems to be doing much better contemporarily. To close out his piece for Esquire, Page shared yet another feeling of euphoria.
“For me, euphoria is simply the act of waking up, making my coffee, and sitting down with a book and being able to read,” he wrote. “I know that may sound strange, but I can’t stress enough the degree of discomfort and struggle that I was experiencing that got in the way of everything. How could it not?”
At this current juncture, especially when the positive mental health effects of transition are constantly buried, Page shining a light on the personal aspects of his transition and how it’s changed his life in his own words is sorely needed. Also, we love to see a trans guy rocking the cover of a men’s magazine for potentially the first time ever.
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